Forget a Husband... I Want a Baby!

So, that matchmaker thing I wrote about in the last post? BIG, HUGE, TREMENDOUS WASTE OF MONEY!!!!! Basically, it's as close as it can get to a scam, without actually being a scam. The "F" rating with the BBB is right, no question. They SUCK. They tell you what you want and need to hear, take your money, and then do basically NOTHING right to help you actually meet someone. They ask you what you're looking for, but then set you up with just whoever they happen to have on their list. They don't actually take your wants and needs into consideration. And even worse, half of the time, the people they set you up with don't even show up! I have had a total of 4 dates set up, and while showed up for all 4, only TWO of the guys showed up. That's NOT a very good track record! And it took me literally MONTHS after the first no-show to even get my "dating director" on the phone to have a conversation about it, and she never got back to me with any of the information I asked for. Then a new dating director took over, so I gave her a chance, and the first guy she set me up with didn't show up, either. I mean, seriously, people! I had a lawyer friend write me a letter to try to get my money back. I need to send it and see what happens...

So, I'm done. I'm over 36 and a half now, my biological clock is ticking out of control, and I want a baby. Now. So, I've been doing lots of research into potentially becoming a single mother by choice. I really want to experience pregnancy and childbirth, and I want to have my own biological baby. So, it's now or never - I mean, my fertility has probably already dropped since I'm over 35, and supposedly it'll drop again at 37. So what am I waiting for?? I may not be able to control finding "the one" in time, but I sure as hell can control having a baby! So, assuming I can figure the finances out, I'm going to move ahead with this plan. I'm hoping to start "trying" for my 37th birthday in January. I do need to figure out the finance issue, which is HUGE, because child care is SO damned expensive! I obviously can't be a stay-at-home mom, so I need to figure out how to be able pay for child care, and it's absolutely ridiculously expensive. If I can't figure out the finances, then I don't see how I'll be able to make this work. So, we'll see. But there's my update - forget a husband, I want a baby!